Tuesday, March 9, 2010
I'm Still Here
Wow its been a long time since I've posted! I have been really busy with our remodeling project, our animals and my new job. The weather is starting to get nice so I've taken every opportunity to get out and walk the dog. No recent weight loss, my diet has been suffering also. Though I haven't gained so that's good. We found out today that my SIL is having a girl. It was the last thing I was holding on to, the dream that I would give our family the first little girl. I thought since I am the little girl that I had that right. I was preparing for this because I knew God wasn't through breaking me yet. It has always felt like a competition between me and my SIL. Looks like she won the final event. I'm disappointed but also feel relieved the game is over. Of course when the baby gets here my heart will break in a million pieces all over again. Thank goodness Dr. Jesus is on stand by. The only One that can truly put it back together better than before it was broke. He's so much more than a band aid! I was determined not to cry over this but as soon as DH called I fell apart. Looks like its time for me to do some work in the ol' spiritual garden. I better roll up my sleeves, get some dirt on this tear stained face and make room for my faith to grow, painful though it may be.