Why do I still cry about this?

So my friends that are having a baby and made me cry so hard on Valentine's Day had their gender ultrasound and told me about it via text again.  He was going on and on about how cool it was to see the baby and finally I said "yeah I bet that is exciting.  I wouldn't know since the only ultrasound I ever got to see was of my dead baby."  Can a texting conversation be awkward?  Well it was, I don't know why I said that and then starting crying again.  Geez, I need to grow up sometimes!