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Saturday, November 20, 2010

ICLW

I'm trying ICLW again, hoping with the holiday I'll have more time to read and post comments. Last time I had a hard time meeting the quota. But I so love finding new blogs and getting comments on mine! Anyone who is new here can check out this post, which was my intro and our IF story for last ICLW that I participated in.

Diet Update: I have not been counting calories since I hit my plateau two weeks ago. The good news.....I haven't gained anything. The bad news.....I haven't lost any more. My goal to lose a lot of weight by our IUI was a big failure. However I did still lose 7 lbs and I'm still working out for 30 minutes 5 days a week. So for now I'm happy to be down 7 lbs and anticipating our hopefully upcoming treatment cycle.

Fertility Update: I still haven't called our RE to beg for an IUI. I'm sort of dreading it. I know they will be reluctant and if so I plan to start with a sob story about how we can't afford IVF and we haven't done any treatments in 2 years so we just want to try something, even if chances of it working are not good. If they are still reluctant my plan B is to tell them I'm paying them to do what they do and there are no life threatening or health reasons not to do it so they better just give me what I want. If I choose to throw my money away on a hopeless cause then what should they care as long as they still get my money. My hopefulness of this working varies from day to day. According to the math we should have about 10mil good swimmers post wash. However they are saying we have 0% morph, even though other labs say morph is normal. But morph is still being debated on its importance. And since the urology labs consider it normal, I think its not as bad as the RE makes it seem. I wish I had one of those REs that doesn't think morph matters. So if we get around 10mil I'll be hopeful, if its 5 or less I'll be convinced it was failure before I even leave the office. On my positive days, I tell myself that God is the ultimate creator of life and my crappy RE is only a tool. It doesn't matter what the RE says or what our numbers are, if God says this is our time then we will get our miracle. If He says we have to keep waiting then even if we had a totally normal sperm count, we still would not be pregnant. My RE and his attitude does not determine the success of our treatment. Only God can make it successful.

Maybe next week I will find the courage to call the RE again and we'll see what they say. If I talk them into it our IUI cycle will begin in two weeks!

7 comments:

  1. I hope you are able to make the call and get the RE to agree. I despise all the unnecessary stress that comes with dealing with doctors!

    ICLW

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  2. It can be tough to speak up and insist on things when it comes to our own health but if it is what you feel you need to do then you just have to do it. You will feel better once it is done. Good luck!

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  3. Hi via ICLW (#102) - good luck with making the quota, I often struggle with that too! Best of luck talking to the RE.

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  4. here from ICLW :) Its nuts that you should have to beg your RE to do another IUI! You're exactly right - they can recommend whatever they want, but its your money. Insane. I hope that it works out well, definitely keep us updated and I'll be back to see how it works out. Praying for you and wishing you sticky baby dust.

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  5. Good luck. I'm sure your RE will listen to you in the end - it is your health, after all.

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  6. Our RE was hesitant to "go back" to an IUI after our failed IVF but ultimately (after lots of discussion :), he said he would do what we wanted to do. If you want it, push for it!
    Good luck!

    ICLW

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  7. Here for ICLW. Hoping that you get the courage to call the RE and that they will do the IUI. You are right it is your money and thus should be your choice. Good luck!

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